Was I blonde in a previous life? I have done so many stupid things today you wouldn't believe!!!



Just popping on quickly to say hello to everyone.

I love this photo challenge - i think we should do it next week too and i'll actually join in!

Yes, I think we should keep doing it - I'm really enjoying it too!

Yes, let's do it next week also.

I only took a couple of pics today
breakfast - toast, ham and cheese
supper - quorn chili from PEP complete, brown rice and salad w/dressing


My spag bol last night was a ready meal (which I normally don't eat for supper) but it was tasty

Lovely looking again Shoe!

I'm having soup for tea as I still havent gone shopping... my photos will look faar better tomorrow! xx

Good afternoon!!

I'm glad everyone has had a social life this weekend... I hope that's everyone's reason for not being on

Everyone ready to do the photo challenge this week?? xx

hello

I have caught up on a lot of sleep this weekend. I'm afraid I know work is going to be tough so i won't take pics but will call in every day

Loved your challenge for this week, such a fab idea
Shoe you need to come and cook for me
Gin good luck for next week, thinking of you xxx

Morning Folks!

Just a quick one from me.. Heading out to look at a showhouse... Fingers crossed!!

Wil return with photos later xx

photo challenge working so far - thought twice before eating a birthday choccie on the way out the door

Will post pics later. Great weekend, got sunburnt again though!

Who's birthday is it....??????

It was my birthday last week but it was such rubbish week i wasn't fussed about celebrating - got about 4 boxes of yummy chocs which i have been demolishing daily, but not this morning .. strawberries this morning and they are actually nice, they taste of strawberrries

Why didn't you say????

Since it was a crappy week for you then we can make up for it next Wednesday and celebrate properly!!

that would be lovely!

Photo thing proving a problem as my internet connection is soooooooooooooooooooooo rubbish. usually use photobucket to shrink my photies. taking far too long . away for lunch - which i will photograph when no one is looking - feeling slightly mad

Evenin' El and Gill

Happy belated Bday El!

Have a few more pics...ate a lot of crap at the weekend which I didn't take photos of...

Sat breakfast and snack - mushrooms on toast and pretzels
Sunday - 2 egg whites, mushrooms & toast, more pretzels, beef with pepper sauce & lots o' veg (broccoli was going off so had to eat it)
Monday - bit more civilised - grapes & strawberries, chicken salad w/crisps and apple, turkey burgers w/beetroot, cauliflower, peas, mushrooms and spread - oh and some more pretzels (they are truly evil) xx

FAB photos Shoe!!!! - Your meals look so tasty.... Esp the beef

I ate out today and the place was mobbed so couldn't take a photo - I had a panini and salad and some veg soup though which was ok - Working so will take dinner photo later

How's everyone else doing? xx

have taken more photies - will try at lunchtime to post them all

yesterday


today so far

Hello all.....awol sooty reporting in!!!

Got away early today...so at last sometime to myself without actually feeling braindead!!
Work was manic last week and by the time Friday came around I was well and truely a gibbering wreck!
Weekend was mostly spent sleeping and catching up on housework, I guess as the weeks go on I will become more used to it and get into more of a routine.....maybe!

Yesterday and today have been much better workwise and I feel a bit more in control. Fingers crossed for the rest of the week.
My pep hasnt been the best it could be but its not been a total disaster either!
I love all your photo's, really good to see what other folks nosh looks like...lol!
My apologies for my lack of said pics....I did take one on my phone but havnt a clue how to get it on here!

Hope your all in reasonable fettle.....will try harder to put in an apperance in the comming weeks...honest!
take care...xx

Ohhh fab pictures El! - That salmon looked fiiiiiiiiiine - What was on your ryvita?

I have ate out for breakfast and lunch today. Shocking. I don't have 11lbs to go anymore..... Too scared to find out the real damage though.. I'm so lucky I don't snack or it would be baaaaad.

Went to asda earlier and got some nice stuff in.. Went on our way over to Halfords to get Roo a car seat which was on offer half price at £65... Thank god I went into Asda first as they were selling one pretty much identical for £25!!! I do love a bargain!!

Welcome back soots! xx

El, your food looks so nice and fresh!

A couple of pics from today - breakfast was hm muesli, soya milk, stewed rhubarb (that looks rather rude), yog and coffee
lunch was out and I couldn't get pics. Supper was cheese toastie (that I bit before remembering to take pic) and some chicken but ate the chicken out of the fridge .

Gill - how do you not snack? One of my bad habits I must say...

Hello Soots!

I'd rather eat my arm than eat stewed rhubarb.

I LOVE crisps so tend to save some checks for a bag of wotsits/quavers etc at night after dinner.. (when I'm being good ) but generally I eat big enough meals that I don't snack in between... I don't work a 'proper' job though so don't realy have the temptation around me like vending machines and seeing other people snacking at break times etc! xx

Good Morning lovely ladies!!

I am officially back on the wagon - I haven't really came off it but I haven't been 100% sticking with it and have been eating out for too much just for the sake of it.. Well no more because I have woken up this morning feeling very sluggish and a bit grotty and I reckon that's why!

Back to planning my day and writing things down.. and taking my photies too of course.. Sorted. Hopefully.

Good morning!

More photies to post. will do it at lunch time. how are you all?

Gosh it's quiet on here without me

Absolutely flat out at work at the moment - I'm going to be working every day (including Sat and Sun) until after the 24th of May I think. Plus I'm starting late nighters soon, so am looking at twelve hour days for the forseeable. I'm tired just thinking about it!

Otherwise ok - had an infected insect bite on my leg which I think is going to scar (lovely!). Food wise is still tricky due to not having time to plan and shop, but thank god for fish fingers!

Hannah.. Can I borrow a tenner??? You will be minted!!!

Gill, are you saying my stewed rhubarb looks nasty? Oh, but it is so tasty (and check free). Plus we are getting a new fridge/freezer delivered at the weekend so I am trying to eat up things that were collecting ice in the freezer...

Well done on the snacking or lack of, it helps with not having the temptation as well.

Morning to everyone. I didn't take pics yesterday as forgot my mobile at home, will post some later. x

hello

Just popping on to say hello. Thanks for the entertainment with all the pics!

I am still not pepping but am eating as healthily as I can. I am taking out some of my stress on the kitchen and have scrubbed my fridge today and organised my freezer so that I know where to find things.

I made a lovely dish with lamb shanks in the slow cooker yesterday - I added so much veg and lentils (and a half bottle red wine) that I think I got my five a day from one portion!

I am just taking a break from the PC to go and get some shoes heeled. how much does it cost near you for heels and soles on stilettos... I always seem to get fleeced!

Evening all - back again! Not feeling great this evening - personal stuff I just can't deal with. Work is helpful for distracting me, but I can't do this forever.

I wish I was rich, but sadly all my money will be going to pay off my credit card bill (or to pay for private counselling, which appears to be necessary at the moment!).

Gin, I try to save my shoes and take them home to my parents - their cobblers charge about £3 a pair for resoling. Here it can cost anything between £6-10!

hello All - i spent £15 getting shoes heeled and soled!

Have been taking photies but not posting them yet - internet connection is painful!

Hello

Spent today in the employment law section of the library and my head is spinning but I think it was produtive.

Got heels and toes done on my shoes for £9 in the end. never had just the toes done instead of the whole sole, hope they last!

have home made bread rising at home ready for sausage sarnies for tea

hannah - hugs, hope the personal problems go away soon xx

Evening all! Went shopping and bought a load of M&S Count on Us meals - not the best but I know my limits and I know how tired I am at the minute! It wasn't as expensive as I'd thought either - it came to £12 for six meals.

I'm hitting a brick wall emotionally at the moment, and I can't get to see my counsellor (even privately) as it hasn't been three months since I last saw her. Both she and my psychologist have told me to write things down, but I just can't do it - I hate reading it back as I sound like some hysterical freak, and I get really really embarassed. I'll never forget how mortified I was reading my teenage diaries - such embarassing drivel! Does anyone keep a diary, or have any advice on how I can start writing things down?

I don't want to go into specific details on the main forum, but in relation to my blog issues I have found writing things down to be a very good way of getting a grip of myself emotionally. I have found the things I have been going through at work to be so emotionally upsetting that in the first few days I could hardly even talk about it but that just increased my anxiety and led me down a path of feeling ashamed of what was happening to me.

I took advice from friends who have dealt with similar stuff and started writing it all down, some of it in my blog, some of it just in a notebook by my bed, and it has really helped me to get it all out and get perspective.

When we keep repeating a script inside our heads it feels very personal and upsetting but just the act of writing it down forces us to detatch emotionally, even if only for the few minutes that we are doing the writing. I know how painful that can be, but if you can bear to have a go then I recommend it. Also, if you can bear it, reading it back a few times can help too. It is painful at first but after you have read and re-read the same thing several times, it is no longer new and the sting is taken out of it a bit.

One of the things I had to do this week was read the responses of work colleagues to the proposals about my area of work. It took me two days even to open the email, and the first read made me very upset. But I made an appointment with myself to read each one five times and by about the third time on each one my upset feelings were quickly replaced with anger and then detemination to fight.

I don't know what your issues are, but whatever it is, you may have made mistakes, or others may have done mean things but you are not a bad person, Hannah.

The other thing about witing things down is that you don't have to keep them forever or even re-read them at all. You are not a teenager now, you are perfectly in control and you could just write it down and then shred it all if that would be worth a go.

btw, well done on getting the count on us meals - good start!

I really must give it a go. I'm still not coping with the same things I wasn't coping with last year, and desperately need to resolve situations with certain people somehow. I'm rubbish at discussing these things with friends, and end up losing my nerve and trivialising how I feel, which doesn't help.

On a more positive note, I've just had a long shower with my favourite exfoliator (olive oil and granulated sugar - cheap, works a treat, doesn't trigger my allergies and leaves my skin lovely and soft). As a payday treat I got a bottle of that St Tropez Everyday gradual tan stuff - expensive at £13 a bottle, but I'm seriously impressed- it went on beautifully, and best of all doesn't smell of foisty biscuits (a first for me!). I don't want a tan as such, but I'm tired of being blue and ill looking. I got a bit addicted to fake tan a couple of years ago, but stopped when I heard a couple of teenage lads describe me as 'fit, but a bit like an oompa loompa'. Naturally, I fixated on the oompa loompa bit rather than marvelling at being described as fit by teenage boys...

Weighed in today... Ticker shows the damage

By the way, I am pissing myself laughing at the fit Oompa Loompa.

Hello gals.....I'm so glad its the weekend!

Last week was pretty hectic but a tad less fraught than my first week of fulltime work. I guess I will just be getting the hang of things by wk 4 and then i will go back to my 3 day week!...lol.
Still the money will come in very handy from these extra hours at the mo!
Pep has not been good and I know if I dont take control real soon things will start to slide...and I cant let that happen!
I must try and sort myself out....

Off out tonight for a friends 50th birthday meal and a few drinks.....

I wish I had a magic wand that I could wave and make things right for those of you going thru tough times right now but all I can do is send you my love and a big hug......have faith and keep going, all will be well.
You are good, honest, hardworking gals and karma will prevail.

take care...xx

Morning all - beautiful day here in Newcastle and miraculously I've got it off! Wonders will never cease (although I'm working tomorrow). Fake tanning going well, although I've missed a bit (damn!) - will have to correct that tonight.

I still haven't ventured to writing things down - I just feel like I'm trapped in a glass box, and can't communicate, even with myself. The writing will help, when I get the nerve to do it! The side effect of my being a bit down is that I'm eating too much - I'm seriously considering Alli. I'm horrified that I'm even thinking about it but I'm getting desperate, and feeling fat and frumpy is making me feel worse.

You don't need diet pills Hannah - You need to have a bloody good night out.... You got a spare room?!

Morning all!
Holiday today, yay! Lovely weather out also , at least we had two days of sun, that's not so bad. Not much to report just now - enjoy your day. x

Morning!!

How is everyone doing today? I am heading off to the gym soon, Jon is off work for 2 weeks so I'm going to 100% make the most of it so I'm gonna try and gym/swim most days... Tomorrow we are going to use a running track though.. Not great at running outside so it will be interesting, I'm sure!!

Nothing to report here at this early hour either.... Back on the wagon today though xx

Me again.. I'm boooooored.

Rachel sleeping, Jon watching a crap film... Heading out for dinner at 4pm must try and be good...!

What a lazy day i have had - watching (listening) to snooker and am still not dressed. Shocking!! Going to get dressed and go to Asda soon - if its open. What a thrill!

Evening all - had a suprise quiet day - went to work and there was nothing to do (waiting on others!) so was done by half 12. Got some jobs done - went to Tesco, and even bought a pad of paper for writing things down.

Have just ordered myself a £90 pair of Merrells for walking - lots of pennies, but looking forward to getting them. I want to get out more, but it's kind of difficult on my own - all the things I like are expensive (my riding is on hold as it's £45 an hour. I quite fancied nordic walking but that's still £30 an hour). Ho hum.

Yes I do have a spare room - we need to sort this out

Jeez you have expensive tastes Hannah.. Yeah defo have to get something sorted.. pronto!

Ended up at Jon's mums for dinner ate far too much... AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

oh your photos are gorgeous, especially yours shoe, do u work in photography?

can i ask what makes ure salad look sooo creamy, it looks delicious

el, didnt realise it was ure birthday either, i too will treat u to dinner

gill, when i was reading about the car seat i was thinking, arghhh asda had one at 25 quid, so glad u got it

We couldn't believe it when we seen it! - Proper chuffed!!

How are you getting on? x

in life? fine, plodding on

in pep? its been a while

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Hello Ladies.

I apologise for not being on at all last week. Stuff happening that just made it impossible!

I am sorry, but I have no photos from last week - PEP was non-existent (just enough time to quickly grap something before I had to rush back out the door again!).

One more thing, can I ask everyone to keep their fingers crossed that my dad gets a letter and not a phone call this week please!!!

And this is my POSITIVE post.

Well PEP was awful last week. But have decided that from this week forth, I will be GOOD!

Went to see Witches of Eastwick on Saturday at the Kings Theatre, and I must say that Marti Pellow was looking mighty fine!!

What is this week's challenge?

Hope everyone is well.

Afternoon ladies!

I have my fingers crossed for your dad's letter Weeble!!!!!!!!!!

I have just had Bounty - A very underrated bar of chocolate I think!...

Rainy rainy day today.. I swear I ope it's nice tomorrow... Me and Jon are 'Going Ape' - If its raining I will cry. www.goape.com