Merry Christmas everyone...its been a long while since I've been on the forum due a very very very stressful 2009. We are currently staying with my mum during a transitional move between houses we've been here a few months and already my routine has gone straight out the window..my mum's house is a scales free zone so I haven't been weighing myself at all during that time!!! Wellllllll we are at my sisters yesterday for xmas dinner as marvellous as it was.. I nipped to her loo and there in her bathroom was a set of scales. Of course I couldn't resist temptation and stood on them!!!!!!!! WHY OH WHY DID I DO IT ON XMAS DAY!!!!!! anyway do I need to say anymore other than I was mortified!!! In a space of a few months I have put on over 22lbs!!! and the worst thing was I never even saw the transformation in myself happening..you can call it self denial! I didn't say a word to anyone once returning back downstairs...its was my little secret and shame on myself....but did it stop me digging in ..no it just made me worse and I ate more . Well we are back round there today for round 2 and to finish off ...I need to apply will power today and resist the second helping of trifle . All night I've been thinking of a quick fix other than lipo

I know there will be a lot of postings dealing with weight gain over the xmas period and I'm sure I'm not alone in how I am feeling, I wasn't trying to vent but wanted to try this morning on starting off on the right foot more than anything...I think its the shock more than anything and the effect it has had on me since yesterday and my self-confidence...or lack of it! This time last year I was at a happy weight and loving my new figure and new found confidence this year I can't be more at the opposite end of the spectrum...I just need to find that will power to start from scratch again. I suppose what I really need is my routine back and my own home.

Hope you are all enjoying your festivities ...I suppose the moral of my story is 'don't stand on the scales on xmas day'


Jo
x

Awww Jo

Glad you had a lovely Xmas.

You have been really busy and sometimes life just gets in the way of PEP and the things that go along with it.

But you know when you are ready to get back on that PEP wagon we will all be here waiting to help you along the way.

Laura xxx

you sound as tho you have had a really stressful time!

everything will fall into place and you can concentrate on your pepping again!

enjoy round 2 xxx

Don't panic! Decide to come back on here to get the support you need so the scales tell a different story this time next year.

Jo hope 2010 is a better year for you. xxx

vent if you need to, thats what we are here for

look towards the new year and a slimmer figure xxxx

I can't add more to what the others have said but here is a hug for you
Hope you're enjoying your day today x

Hi Everyone and thank you for all your kind words and moral support! I definitely could use a huge big sprinkle of it at the moment. Well I managed to stay focused today and not over indulge..I put a brave face on in front of everyone and just mentally decided after spilling my heart out on here that I needed to take some action. Tomorrow I will try and start pepping like it was the very first time doing it...I'm going to dig out my notebook so I can write everything down.

Thank you again I had no one to pour my heart out to and was dying to have a moan to my hubby but unfortunately anything to do with my weight he doesn't like to hear about especially when it gets me down.

Tomorrow is a new day and I will try and my new years resolution is to continue coming onto the forum for help and support throughout my journey.

biggests hugs

xxx

Glad to read you are feeling a lot more positive. I find PEPin does make me feel more in control and makes me feel better about myself.

Good luck and I hope you get your own place very soon.

Look forward to reading how you get on with your PEP.


SpeedyX

Hi everyone..just a quick update to say that So far soooooo good I've been pepping now since Sunday and have tried to stay positive. Once I got back to it and using the book again it kinda all fell into place and I've been religiously writing everything that I eat down. To be honest I can't believe how full i can feel by eating properly A few months ago I thought I could do it the dramatic way and I still didn't lose and infact gained weight as I was hungry all the time!!

So fingers crossed I will have a positive outcome at the end of the week